indeterminate mind

My father was a great man, and I love him dearly. But I am not going to talk about him today. As close as any man can get to but not be my father is my Uncle John. He is family, and I have some wonderful other Uncles. But he showed his love for others both family and friend alike ever since I have known him. And that has always included me. Now John is not ever actively gone to church but has taught me more about my own beliefs than almost any other man. I had never witnessed or heard about a time when someone was in need he did not do what he could for them, even when the person in need was not living the lifestyle he thought they should. I have never heard a false statement cross his lips. And for a man who compared to me is small in stature he has time and time again shown himself to be a man that has a much larger heart than any man I know. My Uncle John has always been a father-like figure to me, and I have always felt like we have a very special relationship, and we do. But I

So what is it about one time a year that seems to be the only time people feel the need to change? I know tradition has a lot to do with it. But that tradition started somewhere. I am just wondering because I have the same problem. I tell myself "This year "This year is the year I am going to lose weight." "This year I am going to work harder." "This year I am going to write more in my book." "This year I am going to…" But rarely do I make any changes at New Year. I usually make changes slowly. Overtime it usually takes putting one step in front of the other. But I am not alone in this. This is usually how everyone changes. Slowly over time, like a snail crawling across a flower or congress trying to do anything. And so I am bucking the system, it is February 5 th ; it is not even February first so I am going to make a new resolution. I resolve to…um oh wait …well I need to lose weight, but that won't happen right away. Oh I